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Am a contradiction of sorts. i love going out and having a good time with friends, and i can also stay home chill out over a book or a movie.. Am very passionate about writing, so give me a topic and watch me float away into wonderland... I Am crazy about music,books,friends and my doggie... :)
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts

March 23, 2014

Bursting at the seams

You dont ask if I am busy
You dont ask if I have other plans
You just assume am gonna drop all I am doing/planned and come over
You dont think twice before lashing out orders
You dont think twice before revealing your true feeling
You make me feel invisible.

There are times when all I want is a kind word
or maybe a smile
There are times when I cry to myself to sleep
and wake up with 
tears rolling down my cheeks
I know you dont even care... 

You dont seem to understand
You dont seem to care
You dont get the concept of feelings
nor the concept of space
And I remain invisible

You treat me as if I was on a leash
You treat me like am your slave
You cry and whine
You laugh and chatter away
Yet I remain invisible

People say it is alright
It is only you
I am to forgive
and you do all this for you love

People say if not with you
who else can she act this way
Not done- I tell them
Not fair- to me! 

Put them in my shoes
and let us see
How they fare, or what they say!! 
The feeling of being invisible.
Painful way to live..

I turn to my friends
They are my only solace
You hate them as well
You care not that they care about me
To them, I am not invisible.

Every time the phone rings
Every time I hear your voice
I wonder what next you have
for me to fulfill 

I bend over backwards
I put you as priority
and 
Yet, you thrash away with those words
I wish I was invisible 
I wish I wasn't here...~!!! 

(c) Aarti 24th March 2014 


October 22, 2009

Within me

All of 18
she shoots questions
day in and day out

making me look within
am i so bad?
or is she just lost?
Who would know, i wonder..

questions, i know not the answer to
life, i've lived by my own rules
renewing vows every day
enjoying every moment
or so i thought...

"What have you accomplished"
she asked.
a line that ripped my heart and soul,
tears flowing free

how could she?
how dare she?
i screamed
i ranted and raved
[within me]


life, a cruel game
rules i seem to have forgotten

my turn..


lost, i stand
i wish i knew why......................

Aaarti